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I am sorry

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I want to apologize the reason im saying that is because of my constant procrastination that i keep doing threw here on deviantart and youtube ill admit it im lazy and for that it cause me to lose hope of my dreams here and on youtube this also let me to depression and anxiety problems that i still have honestly i dont like how i am and how ive become i remembered when i use to love to get on here to publish new art didn't matter if it was good or bad i still enjoyed it because of how i love to show people what i can do with drawing, entertaining, acting and more after that 3 year absence i felt like things change and i didn't feel the same like how i use to be (because of me growing older) but i still wanted to publish more art on here but i felt like the drive in me wasn't there this is the same on youtube the drive of me uploading videos wasnt there like when it was in 2015 when i stated probably because of the changes youtube was going threw to make things worse i wasnt there for my friend diebro210 he deactivated his account and it felt like i had a hole in my heart because i knew i failed my first friend on DA because he felt like he couldn't publish his art because he wasnt good enough i told him to keep trying and dont give up and got better but i wish i was there before he quit DA it sucks and i was crying about it earlier i just hope he didn't give up on his drawings ill be honest ive gain the weight i lost back in 2014 i have a job that i feel its going to be a dead end for (not that it is i just feel that way) and i feel like im not going to succeed on youtube or here or anywhere i felt like ive given up even though i said i never would not only that i felt like ive given up life like i dont care anymore about anything like i use to i even am losing hope and faith in my self to keep going i have friends but there not my true friends WHICH SUCKS i just hope that you guys and girls can forgive me for being this way on here, youtube, twitter, etc the one good thing out of all of this is me writing this journal confessing whats been going on with me and i dont know the reason i want to make this but something just tells me that i should and i did i still have little faith and little hope in me to try to keep fighting to make my dreams come true though i dont know how long it can last but ill keep trying 
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Hey-o guys i am back from another break I took but it was a short break instead of a 3 year break plus I also am focused on my YouTube channel as well so it was hard to submit any deviations but now I've got room to fit in my schedule for those now and I've got upcoming art for you guys to see so my schedule for submitting deviations is 4 per week they will probably be in the morning cause that was usually the time I would submit art but now it's going to be different I am really excited to be back (for good this time) submitting art,  answering comments, getting llama badges, and more if you want to check out my channel PaperCarmelo here's the link goo.gl/sl47LV where I play video games, make comedy sketches, stories, milestone specials and more thanks guys for sticking with me fit 4 years and I can't wait to see what else we got in the future cause I can't wait to see it

Sincerely
papercarmelo
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Hey-o guys to let you know I've decided to extend the papercarmelo until Friday so new stuff is on the way and don't forget to check for Easter Eggs in the deviation leading towards my girlfriend (I'll give you a hint its a female ninja) so you guys have until Friday to figure it out
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Hey-o guys since I've return on DeviantArt I haven't had a chance to submit any of my deviations so starting this Monday I will be submitting new deviantions like for instance Paper Carmelo Series, papercarmelo bloopers, posters, and a new series about my girlfriend yes you never thought it would happen but it did, there will be a comic series about her and I it may sound familiar to you I'll give you a hint (it's a female ninja) so make sure to watch me for the papercarmelo returns week and for a special event starting Monday I will be accepting fan requests during that week so make sure to comment on my profile or send me a note and I will make sure to do everything in my power to get your requests done plus if your waiting for the deviations during that week you can check out my YouTube channel new videos will be uploaded everyday so make sure to stay up to date with my channel and if you want you can subscribe and share my videos with your friends it really helps alot. goo.gl/sl47LV
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Hey-o guys since I've return on DeviantArt I haven't had a chance to submit any of my deviations so starting this Monday I will be submitting new deviantions like for instance Paper Carmelo Series, papercarmelo bloopers, posters, and a new series about my girlfriend yes you never thought it would happen but it did, there will be a comic series about her and I it may sound familiar to you I'll give you a hint (it's a female ninja) so make sure to watch me for the papercarmelo returns week and for a special event starting Monday I will be accepting fan requests during that week so make sure to comment on my profile or send me a note and I will make sure to do everything in my power to get your requests done plus if your waiting for the deviations during that week you can check out my YouTube channel new videos will be uploaded everyday so make sure to stay up to date with my channel and if you want you can subscribe and share my videos with your friends it really helps alot. goo.gl/sl47LV
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